Dancing in Heaven

Today was the day. Oh how many times I have wondered, when Lord? Now I know. April 22,1995-November 9, 2005. We got to have 10 years with our baby girl on this earth. I can only imagine what it was like when she went from here to her eternal home. All I know for sure is that she is whole now. She can walk, talk, eat, run, play and sing. And I know she will love to dance because she could never hold still when the music was on. I know she is no longer stiff or spastic. Her mouth can open and close and I know she has the most beautiful teeth now.

My best thought came shortly after she died, while she was still in my arms. It has been so hard all these years to not know if she recognized me or knew I was her mom. I wanted so bad for her to feel my love and to know how much I loved her. While I was holding her and looking down at her worn little empty body, I pictured her sitting on Jesus' lap, feeling His perfect love and looking down at me holding her and realizing the love of her mother.

I know the best is yet to come. I cannot express how much I look forward to our reunion in Heaven. But right now I am content knowing she is with my Lord and Savior and he has touched her and made her whole.

Another special thing about today is, that it is the same day the Lord took my step-father two years ago. I need to finish that story one day soon but I can't think it coincidence that they left here on the same day.

The Lord continues to teach me and lead me thru circumstances that allow my faith to grow. I do trust Him with all my heart and definitely can't lean upon my own understanding. I have learned to look for His purposes and trust that He does work all things for my good.

Father, you alone are good and perfect and true. Thank you for continueing to give me proof of that. Thank you for the special privelage of being Kristin's mom. Oh how you've changed me because of her. It hurt so bad sometimes but I know it was necessary. I cannot even express right now, all the things I feel and think, but that's the awesome thing about you, Father, You already know. I am so thankful that we know Kristin is safe with you and that our time apart is short compared to eternity. Over 2000 years ago, you watched your Son suffer and die, but you had a purpose and a plan. I know Kristin's life is within that plan also, and I praise You for that. I might question, but I will never doubt your good, pleasing and perfect will. Thru Jesus I pray - Amen